I don’t believe there is anything silly about dreaming, for it is often in our dreams where God communicate with us. I truly admire your humbleness, your strength, and your determination to do better for your children. Sometimes others may draw their strength from you misfortune and in turn use it against you to keep you feeling powerless, worthless, and under their control.
You just keep dreaming because when we dream God sees it as us reaching out to him and he will be there for you. Stand firm in your faith and stay prayerful, for joy cometh in the morning. It is my prayer that God keep you and bless you immensely and that you will accomplish the very best you can posses.